down…

i'm feeling down these past few days.
busy in work. busy on trivial things like dota.
trying to escape things which i should have faced earlier.
it's really shameful that i even distanced myself to God.
been late, if not skipping church, didn't read the bible nor study the lesson.
i wish God would send someone who will rebuke me.
i know that God is always there and He has thousands of ways.
i just pray that God give me wisdom to know His plans for me,
and humility and strength to accept and carry them through..